once again I fell off the bandwagon. The holiday came and school started to get tough and I get stressed and eat. I am so tired of doing this to myself. I do good for a week or two then fall off for 2 weeks then I feel bad about and the cycle continues. I have to take on control of this situation. I am prayerful but maybe I am not giving it over. Maybe I am trying to be too much in control over something I obviously need help to manage. I feel so guilty for doing this to my body when I know better. I know the consequences to this destructive behavior.
What I am not going to do is get all down on myself about it. I am going to shake myself off and pray and start again. Pick up where I left off the thing about it is I know that I am not giving this 100%. I have to want this for me and more than anything else. I know I can do it because I have I just need to get it moving.
I am going to the MD today because I have been having armpit pain so I just want to get it looked at just to be safe. I will also discuss with him my issues and see what he suggests. It's time I go get tested for diabetes. I have to change my life. God I am asking you to help me get a handle on this weight before I self destruct. One day at a time.
